Another Let eberythingg off my chest day
really feeling down again
comes with exhaustion i think
really gettin worn out by everything
training no longer seems appealing to mi
Club rugby has no more attraction esp since its playin in a team with few frens
dun know half the team
that just makes the game boring
Ngee Ann on the other hand is Fun
Maybe its time to let some things go
The Freshies in Rugby are really Nice
most of them that is
some can click with the old ones
the rest make the effort too
Really Tired
of School
Project
Now i have to approach my own Attachmetn company
My drivin is not yet complete
Gerards test is coming and i haven booked my yet
wth!
i need to drive

Girls!
i dunno
i really dun

sick of life
really am
but
Life Goes On
with or without mi

p.s. i prob dun make sense..............but most pple dun..............so live with it

Today was kind of a bad day
haiz
started with the test
screwed it up
hopefully i pass
thats all i ask for

Attachment
Request for School was turned down
not only that
i was not posted to any company and will have to go look my own company tmr
hopefully the Aqualife Clinic require people
if not i will really be at a loss
the Koi Shop i Guess
haiz

Did not get to meet Hadassah today
clash of schdeules i guess
slacked at the library with Sam and Chong Hui though
quite Fun
hahaha
the simple pleasures in life
just chit chattin away
abt everything under the sun
frm Rugby to Netball
hahahaha

Driving was non existent
mistook the reminder i left in my calendar for Genomic Test for Driving
so i rushed down to the Centre
only to realise that i did not have a booking
had originally left today free for Sum41
haiz
wasted Trip
hopefully the instructor will let mi finish the last 2 subs tmr
or else
next week

No sch tmr
however
have to find IAP company
have to do project
hope to meet hadassah

No jamming this week i think
unless its on sat frm 1-3 again
Stats lecture b4 that and Rugby after
Busy Busy Week!

Today was really Busy and Tiring
Rushed to sch for Project
attempted to study in Atrium
met Hadassah......no complains abt that
hahahaha
Rushed to YCK fr gym
then to Training
followed by Driving
2 more to go
TIRED
beginning to burn out

back frm Holland V
Dinner was Fun
major talk cock session with the Guys
as Usual
Training was Fun
No boring Drills
but a modified version of touch
Din get to go back with Hadassah
cos they were waiting in Canteen 1
while we were at the sports complex waiting for them
hahahaha

back from ZoukOut
It was Fun
The Music
the non stop dancing
just being there
James Levelle and Sasha rocked the house
Damn Tired

will update when i wake up

Today was really Busy and Tiring
add Diarrhea to that
haiz
Sch was ok
got the Low Attendance thingie sorted out already
Have to start on my Work soon

Zoukout tmr
Just got my ticket

Training was ok lah
Dinner was Slack
got to know thi New Rugby Girl
Hadassah, Cool Name
Nice to talk to
Cute too.
Took the same bus as her
She lives at Khatib
took the bus til there
then took 854 home

met this other guy HongWei too
More and more pple living near mi
Nicholas too
hahahah
pple to go home with

Spent nearly the whole day at Dreamscape
watched 2 Fast 2 Furious
1 thing to say
i need a Evolution 7 and a Mitsubishi Spider
Need being the operative term
hahahaha
anyway
felt really ill the whole day
Diarrhea and Indigestion the whole day
i really dunno why
arghhhhhhhhh

Driving was ok
dun have a lesson immediately after watching 2 fast2furious
hahahaha

Class at 8
i need my REST!!!!!

I am exhausted
Too much training i guess
i am having Rugby on every other day
at first its Fun
now its exhausting

I dun believe i actually got a warning letter for IL
i made up the lesson man
have to go talk to Dr Koh tmr
haiz

Darius and Cherie keep asking who i like
its not that i dun wnna say
but its more complicated than that
many factors involved
dun really wanna talk abt it

Flexble timetable tmr
Yay
will prob sleep in first
unless i wake up early

Second batch of Eye Stalk Ablation done
Dr Chang checkd it already
seems fine
hopefully they dun die

CCA Fiesta tmr
Rugby booth will be up
did a poster
Running dry on Ideas
Tired i guess

TRaining was fUN
played Contact
Fun!
Rest day tmr

I am in a very confused state now
how am i feeling?
its a bittersweet sensation that i am feeling now
Failure and Success seldom come together
but Miracles do happen

on one hand i feel like a total failure
The OIAP incident left mi scarred
i deserved it i guess
took everything for granted
A wake up call huh?
maybe.......

also
i really like this person
but i dunno how to tell that person
theres too much at stake if it goes wrong
the possible loss of Friendship and more

On the other hand
T.O.R is doin rather well
getting Gigs
should be goin into the studio to recording some stuff at the end of the year
New Line Up and all
hope it stays this way

Rugby is goin well
Fitness is goin up
Ball skills is improving
according to the coach
Team Spirit is there this yr
Ngee Ann has an Extremely strong team
Rivalled only by Tp

So how should i feel about all this?
Happy?
Sad?

at this pt
its more of a lets see how things go sort of attitude for mi
Well.........
Thats Life..........
Shit Happens
when the cleaners usually come to clear things up soon after
Smile pple
Let God work his plan in your Life

Change
the word most pple hate
everybody would at some pt of their life
wish time would just stop
and everything would remain that way for the rest of their lives
but its not only the things around us that change
pple change too
whether u want them or not
Good or Bad
its still change
some slowly some take a sudden 360 degree turn
why?
no one knows
it could be due to the things happening to them
Its the experiences in life that mould a man/woman

Rugby game went ok
Lost
but i played ok

Went for Baybeats again
Pug Jelly was Nice
but Fonzie made them totally Forgettable
Great Set by them
spoilt by the Mats

Met Cons
Qin and Fu
Deng
Dead End
Jeremy
Brett
Min
and Noor
among others......

Din know that Jimmy Yap was the Soundman for the Event
he told mi some stuff that really made sense

hmmmmmm

Party at Embassy
Everyone seems to be there
Tempting
but resisted
heard many 17 yr olds were left outside
hahahaha
Hope Cherie, Michelle, Suresh and Gang and Eldon and co. have Fun

Just got back Frm Baybeats
Great Show frm NvRLrN
Really Tired!
4 more lessons for Driving then test
Hopefully i pass
i cant wait to drive

Transfered all the Crayfish liao with help frm Faye
Now for the Rugby Design
I need photos

Gym was good!

I finally got my hair Cut
People will prob say it looks the same
but i dun care
cuttin ur hair is therapeutic
it release stress

I am losing Crayfish by the 10s
thats bad
hopefully the rest stay alive

Driving was not that good
i totally forgot how to vertical park
haiz
only rem after the lesson
too late

Lesson in the Morning
Parallel parking
Gym after
Go Home Bathe
Lecture
Baybeats
perhaps Hendrix?

Tired
off to bed
Busy Day tmr

Trainin was tiring
but good
Need the fitness and fat burning for Zouk Out
should be goin unless something crops up
i guess that means sum41 will not be on my agenda
can't afford both

have to go for Make Up IL Practical tmr
becus i woke up late and went to class at 945am for a 8am class
finished the tutorial and got the results from running the gel though
dunno why i am even goin tmr
oh yah!
for attendance
haiz

Will try for the fourth time to cut my hair
hopefully i succeed
hahahaha

Driving tmr
Finally
hope i rem everything

Jamming was Good
The gig got pushed back
Guess our set will change
more Originals
less Covers
time we moved on frm covers

My Crayfish are In
99 of them
3 died along the way
haiz

Class at 8
till 4
Gym then training
Tiring day

Tired again
Training today
Did Gym today
The Ngee Ann team this yr is damn good
Burstin with Talent

The Organisation is there too
pple taking training
assigning stuff to do
teaching the newbies the basics

The commitee is really doin their job
the main guys lah
Sam and Gene
and Yap, Jachin, Mark, Randy

I wanna do fitness

Jammin tmr
new songs

Busy Weekend
Audition went well
Thank God for that

Thankz to Cherie, Songyu and Mun for coming down
to the Cold ShoeFerns, Great Job Guys
see ya guys at the Gig
thankz for waiting for us

Training was boring for mi
Shoulder got injured again
so din train much
Fitness was good
Beginning to love it

Dinner with the ruggers
thats abt it
Touch Rugby tmr

Audition went well
only band to get a crowd response
we spent more time waiting for our turn then actually playing
hahahaha

Slacked around the whole day
need a hair cut urgently
HOT!

i've realised i like girls with short hair
i dunno why
but ya i do

Tiring day today
Classes frm 8-6
supposed to have a 2 hr break which became a half hr one due to the unfinished Integrated Lab Wrksht

Its Confirmed
I am not goin for OIAP
mixed Feelings
not really sad abt not goin but more abt gettin dropped
Mum was thinking of Talking to the lecturers
but i din want her to
I would rather not go then go in thru the back door
Gettin dropped was a huge blow
beggin them to let mi go would be swallowing my pride
No Way

Jamming was Ok
Got Tired towards the End
Time began to WAVER
HAHAHA

Darius and Ryan's Final Proj starting already
need to get the logistics done
then its time for recording
Wow
looking back a yr ago
There was no TOR
hahahah

Audition tmr
Hope it goes Fine
Will be goin to the AquaLife Clinic to ask if they need attachment students

One Step Closer to my License
I Passed my Final Theory Test
Project day went fine
Did what i had to do
asked the qns i had to ask
Found the things i needed to find
ya so...............thats abt it
Slacked at Dreamscape
because Faye went to meet her fren
Darius left to meet Christie
Sho and Noella went to walk around and i was lazy
hahahaha
It was ok
Learnt something abt Army frm Sam
Huh?(the important word in the army)

Driving was ok
a little disappointed though
thought i could clear 2 subjects today
but no.........
the instructor only cleared mi on one
haiz
wasted a lesson
to think i drove well today
no stalls, Reversing was good
Parking went well
Lane Changin fine
even rem to check my BlindSpot
hahahaha

Busy day tmr
Meetin Jill in the morn to get my bag
Class til 6
Jamming

ExHausted
Flu
Cough
Sore Throat
Lecture frm Dr. C
Fitness Training

Classes were Fine
got to spend time with my Classmates
Astrid , Sabrina, YuanHao, Faye and co.
always a good thing
Fun too

gonna restart the Eyestalk Ablation Studies
cos of the stupid mistake i made
Luckily its only 2 weeks into the Experiment
Will have to do work on the Chitin Studies
Protein Recovery
Astaxanthin
HPLC

Had "Lunch" with Cherie at Tp.
it was ok
still having the craving for Sumo Bento

Training was...........Tiring
Try Sprintin with a blocked Nose
was as usual
Rugby is always FUN
Love the Game
would not give it up for the World

Project tmr
Driving too

Life is Beautiful
R I G H T

We are only as good as we think we are
when pple put us down
thats just their perception of You
to mi, I am the Best.
If u feel differently abt mi
so be it

What does not kill us only serves to make us Stronger
Life is abt learning frm ur mistake
the day u are perfect,
you're prob dead as well

Local Attachment
here i come

Nvr in my Life have i felt more like a
total LOSER
or a
Total FAILURE
I am no Longer going fior the Overseas Attachment
because i got Dropped for Bad Results
The criteria Changed i guess
it was Pass Everything which i did
but Now its no longer Good Enough
as I walked out of the Meetin
i felt Lonely
Lonlier then i have even felt before
Still i had to put up a strong Front
all i wanted to do was Break Down
but...............

"We can't send you because your results for last Semester was just not good enough" "Sending you is like sending the Image of Ngee Ann Poly and the Image of Singapore to Australia. If we sent you, They would think our average results are like Yours."

The words are still ringing in my head
Confidence Low
Morale Rock Bottom
What a Bad Day

to add to that
I have to meet Dr Chang tmr to explain Stuff
Why she has not seen mi for about a week?
why i added Acriflavine?
why the tanks were Dirty?
among others
Its not My Fault.........

Rugby was the only thing that went well
Fun as usual
Dunno i would cope without it

Driving started badly
Sinus. Runny Nose
Something which totally affects ur driving
its not easy trying to park a car while ur nose is running
haiz............

Bad Day

Tmr will be better?
but Tomorrow nvr comes

Nvr in my Life have i felt more like a
total LOSER
or a
Total FAILURE
I am no Longer going fior the Overseas Attachment
because i got Dropped for Bad Results
The criteria Changed i guess
it was Pass Everything which i did
but Now its no longer Good Enough
as I walked out of the Meetin
i felt Lonely
Lonlier then i have even felt before
Still i had to put up a strong Front
all i wanted to do was Break Down
but...............

"We can't send you because your results for last Semester was just not good enough" "Sending you is like sending the Image of Ngee Ann Poly and the Image of Singapore to Australia. If we sent you, They would think our average results are like Yours."

The words are still ringing in my head
Confidence Low
Morale Rock Bottom
What a Bad Day

to add to that
I have to meet Dr Chang tmr to explain Stuff
Why she has not seen mi for about a week?
why i added Acriflavine?
why the tanks were Dirty?
among others
Its not My Fault.........

Rugby was the only thing that went well
Fun as usual
Dunno i would cope without it

Driving started badly
Sinus. Runny Nose
Something which totally affects ur driving
its not easy trying to park a car while ur nose is running
haiz............

Bad Day

Tmr will be better?
but Tomorrow nvr comes

First Day of School went fine
A little Diff though
The Absence of the Guys in my class
Thank God that Astrid, Noella and Jingting is in my class
together with Faye and the rest
Addition of New Classmates:
Namely Sabrina

Project went fine
Reb was saying that Dr. Chang was not very happy that she had not seen me for quite sometime
wth?
is it my fault i actually come early to rush out my work b4 leaving
The other Group comes late in the Afternoon
thats why u always see them
All the Meetings you Organised are in the late Afternoon
I come in the Morning and usually leave after lunch
No Pt hanging around the lab with nothing to do
haiz
Meetin her on Wed.,

Jamming went well
got the songs more or less settled
just a little more polishing here and there

Billards after
ok lah
Felt a little left out though
I guess Friends do drift away after a while
Anyway..........
Going to settle Driving stuff tmr
if possible meet up with Astrid
or maybe go down for Lesters Jam
Then Touch Rugby in the Evening

Dilemma...........
I dun wanna go For the Overseas Attachment anymore
Too many Sacrifices..........
- My friends
- Family
- Playing Div 1 Rugby
- The Band
- Driving

Haiz
also
Why Adelaide?
It would be Easier to Convince myself if it was Brisbane
Even the World cup is no longer Enticing
why watch a Sport when u are play it?
Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...........

If i give it up now
i'll prob get some lousy IAP company...........

maybe i shuld try asking the Aqualife Clinic near my place to see if they need Attachment Students

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u23 Tournament

---

Started well
Managed to get a few Runs In
Won Northern Knights and SRC
had a chance to top the group and avoid meeting Safsa in the Semi
but it was not to be
Drew with Police 0-0
ended up 2nd
by then No one felt like playing already
Lost to Safsa badly
However
Good Attempt overall
Proud to have been able to play a part

---

I made it to the Division 1 squad
Majorly Happy

---

Rugby Chalet
was damn Fun
Drinks were Flowing Freely
got made to drink a shit load of Alcohol
A Little Hung over
Great Bonding btw the Team

what to say abt today
spent time with friends
thats abt it

was talking to lester abt some stuff
i kinda agree with what he said
but as we always say
to each his own

a sch mate of his wrote a piece with respect to Lester's essay on"Why Blogs are Stupid"
to him i say:
"judging a person seems to be one of the major flaws in society these days. why can't we live by seeing the goodness in people rather than their flaws?"
dear person,
by replying to his piece .you are already judgin him, thus making whatever u wrote hypocritical.
Thankz

Rather good day today
Started off well
on my way to sch
saw a familiar figure
turned out to be Gracie
the Girl i met at Hendrix
hhahha
turns out she the same age and shes in NP too
Thought she was 16 or 17

Din get to enter the lab cos it was closed
The TSO all went for some meeting
Went to kachiao Astrid in her lab =)
Busy lady!
unlike me

went down to Far East
showed the design to the Dreamscape guys/gals
went to get it Printed
went Shoppin with Faye and Qin
New Boxers
hahahah

Rushed down for Jamming with Qin
WeeLee was ok
Same Drums as mi
Nice double pedals
Screwed up Cymbals and Amps though
Kei Gao uncle too
prob go back to Anns
but Damn Far leh

Went for more SHoppin with Qin, Darius, Christie and Ryan
met Chris on the way
Left for Driving

Driving went Remarkably well
Cleared the "Tough" Subject and nearly cleared the Review
except for the Stupid U-Turn where i accidentally striked the Kerb
Damn!

Tmr...........
Sch for awhile
Hair Cut
Queensway
meet up with Cherie

Busy day today!
2 OF My Crayfish are Pregenant
they have Eggs!
reminds mi of Sushi!
Din manage to do the HPLC stuff
din have the protocol
have to search for it

Slacked in the Library
watched abit of Willy Wonka
and Mr Bean.

Went for Exercise
Gym
Sprints
Swimming

Then had to take a cab to Driving
Late!
i cannot drive with shoes on
Cannot feel the Pedals
Damn! i am so Screwed
Did U-Turning
din expect to clear the subject
Phew!

Tmr another busy day
will take the tee design down to Far East
will drop by Dreamscape first to ask Min abt it
then maybe go print it
Jamming after that
Followed by Queensway perhaps
then Driving!

Hey people,
If anyone was offended by anyone of my entries yest.
Sorry!
Just needed to get stuff off my chest
now that it is off
everything is forgotten

anyway
Spent the whole day at home
slacking
then Driving today
Did not play soccer or go to Sentosa

Sch starts in abt a week

Tmr will be the first time in 3 days that i can touch my drums
Yay!
i am so hooked on the punk version of Country Road
heard it @ Dreamscape but can't seem to find it online
its by Me First and the Gimme Gimmes

Guys
wanna do that for a cover?
Jam on Thursday 5-7?
can?
i cannot make ti any later than that
got Driving!

i need a songlist too
so far the only confirmed songs are

Ryan's song
Darren's Song
NFG
GreenDay
Girls all the Bad Guys Wnt

we need at least 2 more tracks
Country Road?