The Morning/ Afternoon after Fresh!
It was quite Fun
Got really High
Saw pple gettin really wasted
saw pple i haven not seen in a while
what more can i ask for ya?
the music was Fanstastic too
hahahaha

Happy
20th
Birthday
Darius

To DARIUS: Have a Brilliant Birthday. Glad to see you have found someone who can once again bring a smile onto your face. Its Been long overdue man. May both of you treasure each other for the days ahead of you. The Past Year has been a rather trying one for our Friendship. But i'm glad to see that we have come out of it Stronger and Closer. Work Hard but rem to Rest Yourself and take sometime out to reflect and Pray. God Bless You and Take Care Bro. It been a Wonderful 6 Years Knowing You. Thankz for Being You Darius! You Bring out the Best and Worst in Me and for that i Thank You. hahaha Thankz for Dinner too

My First Accident
Happened at Noventel Hotel
Stupid Mistake
Wrong Turn
Hit the divider
I had a bad feeling about driving out today
Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Will prob lose Driving privileges for a while
what to do
I deserve it
For being a Dumb Ass

Dinner with Darius n Jolene, Chris n Min, Darius bro n gf, Darius Parents and Mun
It was Couples Nite out except for mi and Mun
Thank god he was there
It was a Great Dinner
Casual Conversations flowing, Jokes , Harmless Jibes at each other
It would have been perfect if the Car was Fine
Stupid Stupid Me
Arghhhhhhhhhhh

Arghhhhhhhh
End of Long WeekEnd
back to hussle and Bustle of Sch once again
Projects, Presntations Assignments

Friday
went to China Black
It was Quite Fun
met a few unexpected pple there
Thankz for the Drinks Darius

Saturday
Visiting
Went Zy house with Astrid, Faye, Su and Gerard
met a few of her Frens
and also her family
Really Nice pple
HAd a Great time
Eating and Playig Cards

Irving's House was next
More food
plus Will and Grace

went downt o town after in the pouring rain
Shopped and slacked Around

Sunday
Family day
Finally got down to visiting uncles in Singapore
Ate even more
Collected money
thats abt it
asked my cousin to help mi get my birks in Germany
hope he gets it
i really want them

I Feel so refreshed in terms of Music
I think i have had enough rest already
1 mth is all i needed

You would nvr guess what suddenly brought mi back
something which once again ignited the flame that was dying out
honestly at one point i was so sick of playing Music
i was considering quittin
but all thats over
and i'm back

Thank God for Good Charlottle
hahaha
never expected to say that
but watching "the Anthem" MTV really made mi wanna play on stage again

i kinda realised what our mistakes were for the past few gigs already
Complacency!
For the past few"bad" gigs. we din really practice
rem how we practised in the past?
for every gig no matter big or small
we practiced and practised
but now
we just do 1 session and we call ourselves ready
maybe its time we went back to basics?
back to the weekly or at least fortnitely practice
i am guilty of this thinking we are good enough
but the truth is
we aren't
so lets just start over ya?

I am So Bored
or in the Words of Darius" You are so Sad"
so true
i cant find anyone who can go for Giles Peterson tonite
I am gonna miss the Greatest Dj tonite
and also
the Best Local Dj"Jeremy Boon"
Guess mt trip back early was kinda in vain
Arghhhhhhhhhh
wth

Only thing to look forward to
Visiting tmr
who wants mi at their place?
tell mi and
i'll be there

Til then
if u need to find mi
i'll be under my blanket
Happy Chinese New Year

So it more or less Worked out
I went to Malaysia
and came back early
Malaysia was ok lah
Did abit of Shoppin
SkinXWear is cheaper there
hahah
Bought mORE
Played abit of Cards
Ate like a ton of Food
Grew Fat
and here i am
back once again in front of my com
bored
hahaha
I really wanna go for Giles Peterson Set tonite
Once of the reasons i came back today
and of course Visiting with Astrid and co tmr
that should be fun

Not really concerned witht eh Ang Pao collection this year
just taking whatever is given as a bonus

Must start controlling my finances
in case of rainy weather
i dun say rainy day
or bad things come in packages

Dilemma
Training or Malaysia
its one or the other
Malaysia to spend time with Family
and purely that
dun really wanna go and look like i'm having tons of fun

on the other hand
Train on CNY Eve then
Spend a Lonely CNY by myself?
with the outing to Zouk on Friday
Giles Peterson with Zo and Co.
i hope
Visiting with Astrid, Faye, Zy and Su on Sat
I really dunno
No Car too
what to do
Good thing is i can run and try to lose weight
I really dunno

Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Gonna Sleep early Meeting at 8 tmr
How?
How?
hOW?

The Moment you were Born
you begin Awaiting your death
How and when it comes you do not know
Some end life in their own time
some just wait it out

To Live a short Meaningful Life or
A Long Meaningless Life?

Live and hope to make a difference
or Die and Save a Life?

Choices! Choices! Choices!
make yours and pay the price

whats my choice?
I dunno!

Meaningless!
Just a WASTE of Breath
Arghhhhhhhhh
why not just take it away or give it to someone else
could easily name a hundred who deserves it more than me

Life!

Car Shoppin did not happen today
Instead became Shopping Asistant to Zo, Lumps and Vig
It was Fun
talking cock all the way
while attempting to find nice shirts
surprisingly i din buy anythin
Its really Budget time
Getting low on funds

Zo got a damn nice shirt
from Surface
glad i helped with a 3 dollar discount
hahaha
Got a cute looking chick working there now
hahaha
went for cheap sushi
sat there
ate, drank like tons of ice lemon tea
talked like major amt of cock
the waitress is quite cute too
hahaha

Pillow shoppin after
went to test pillows at Spotlight
Latex Pillows Rock
so do Hot pink BedSheets and Pillow Cases
Purple and lime green ones too

sch tmr
Another week
1 week closer to army
1 week closer to project
1 week closer to farewell
Enjoy it while it last

The past week have been really Tiring
lots of Running, Training
No meeting up with friends
and to round it off
the most boring nite of Clubbing ever
i swear it was the epitome of Boring
nearly fell asleep on the dancefloor

Ran 9.something km yest
Slightly Short of 10km due to the stadium closing
Damn!
will try again on monday

Friday
Clubbing is gettin Boring
Drinking, Dancing ............Boring
i am not enjoying it anymore
maybe it was the absence of my usual group of khakis
Darius, Jolene, Lester and Charm, Chris, Mun and co.
Thank God Zo and Vig were there
Sab and Berd too
they made the Night bearable
Should have stuck to my Gut feeling and stayed home
instead of making my self so tired i slept saturday away
i mean the whole day
until abt 630
when i went running

going Car Hunting today
with zo and vig
hope we find something nice

So Tired!
Ran a total of about 10km today
6km b4 training with Dustin
followed by 3 km of sprints
Wow!
din know i could be so tired
But it sure felt good
More training tmr

Drove to school for the first time
It was ok
saves the hassle of taking a bus home

I really need retail Theraphy
haven bought anything in a long while
arghhhhh!

Project!!!!
Dunno what to do!

1 week down
Many more to Go
The Stress begins to pile up
New Project
New commitments.........Rugby and Sch
Modules to think about
More time management.............

My Drving seems to be gettin bad
Beginning to make stupid Mistakes
Nearly crashed today
Scared the Shit out of it
I swear i nvr felt so close to Death b4

Season is coming
Pple still not showing Commitment
guess we're gonna have to work with what we have
We will Beat SP!

Girls!!!
More or less resigned to the fact
i'll nvr get a gf
hahaha
I'll always be the best friend
but there are always pros and cons
the pro???
still waiting to find out

3 days of school
so far so good
Classes are ok
Some Boring as Hell
some passable
Bled a Mouse today
kinda got over the fear of needles and blood already
part and parcel of life

Plan to remain low profile failed
all the teachers know my name and face already
esp the IS ones
well
whats new?

Its Great to be back in Sch!
with Friends and all

Project meeting tmr
hope it goes well
really dunno what to expect
hope for the best
prepare for the worst

First Day of School today
Was Great meetin Up with all my Classmate once again
it seem like just yester we all left for IAP
the friendly batter all back to normal
nothin lost at all
however
come cliques have changed
new additions here and there
but whatever

Went out with Jolene, Darius, Chris and Siew
Watched Good Boy
Seeing the Dogs in the Show
I really missed working at the Vet
playing with the Dogs
as Darius would put it
"I want 20 Cookies"

Feeling
Mentally
Emotionally
Physically
Spititually
Exhuasted.....................

Will hand in Report tmr
a load of my mind
unless..............

in another 5 hrs marks the beginning of the Final Semester in Ngee Ann
I experiencing a feeling of anticipation
yet on the other hand i wish i had more holidays
with the arrival of the sch yr comes projects, reports and exams
but on the bright side
friends who i haven seen in ages.

JamX came and went off once again
We din qualify for the finals this yr
A lesson perhaps?
What goes up must come down.
but lets take it as a slap in the face and bounce right back up
we are better than this TOR
i know it.
I am dissapointed no doubt
but dissappointment is part and parcel of life
and i have to accept it whether i like it or not

I Guess Lifes gonna be rather lonely for mi for quite some time
the one will come.........
or so they say
but the qn is
will she come in time?
Lifes a Bitch

The DAY is finally here
A brand New Yr.
its just another Day i guess
New Beginning and all?
its just psycological

2003 started on the Worst note possible
dun wanna go into it
it din really improve much throughout the yr
what happened in 2003
Started Really Clubbing
Drank alot more
Band Formed
Qualified for OIAP
got Kicked out of OIAP
IAP
made new Friends
Lost some old ones

how did spend the final moment of 2003?
clubbing
on the Podium at Zouk
with Nikki, Darius n Jasmine
The Music was Great
the Company was ok
but...
Something was just missing tonite
its such special times when u really feel lonely
u look around and all u see are couples and more couples
the Feeling Sucks i tell u

Chris was asking a few days ago
how single pple felt abt not having someone there for u when u had a really bad day
i guess we all just grow numb
The Feeling is there but u try to ignore it
sometimes it works
sometimes it just stings really bad
but Lifes a Bitch

Not Much high hopes for the Coming yr
Arghhhhhhhhhhhh
i just really wanna find somewhere and just scream out real loud
Screw the New Year