Just got back from TTSH
Sam Fractured his Finger
We Lost the Game
went against the heaviest Angmoh ever
just leaning on me
i felt like dying

Touch was ok
Scored a try and got an assist
good enough for mi

getting screamed at at home
for the weirdest reason
My Hair!
whats with the hair
just because it has shaved in designs at the side
my mum is picking on it
She basically hates most things about mi
She hates that i play Rugby
She hates that i'm not in the Army
She hates mi goin out
she hates my piercing
she says i'm selfish
she hates that i get allowance
she calls mi names
she hates my hair
she hates me shopping

cmon its just hair
it'll be gone in 2 weeks
i hate shouting at my family
so i just walk away
and to them thats defiance
so either way i lose out

I would love to have a job
i wanna go in late to make use of the reduction in service
I cut my hair for Fun
i club because of the frens and music....half the time i dun drink much
i like Shoes. ...its like someone collecting stamps
when i shop i stay home
so it evens out the spending
when i go out
i scrimp and save
i eat cheap food
i take the bus or look for the cheapest parking

I'm really sick of Gettin judged by the way i look
but i just keep quiet cos i love my mum and my family
every jibe i get
i take it with a smile
when i wanna just make a sarcastic remark back


ARGGGGHHHHH

Today/ Yesterday was a Beautiful Day...
My Shoes came in
I actually sat down and laced them properly and polished them
hahaa
I Love Shoes...

Training was Damn Fun
But super Tiring
wanted to chop my legs off after the training
haha

was intending to stay home
but then ended up goin down to Black
to accompany Nikki and join Darius
It was ok
Good Music followed by Bad Music followed by good
Tons of Chicks there
Some of them were really Hot
and the spoke English..... as in Proper English
I'm such a sucker for English speaking Girls
haha
but as usual....
I din do anything about it
whats New?

I finally Got down to doin something productive
I went for my Diving Lesson
Theory today
was a really enjoyable lesson with Nikki and Sim
So much things to know about diving
Really excited abt it....except
abt the part where i have to take off my shirt
hahaha

had supper after lesson
and just sat there for like an hr plus talking abt everything we could think of
sometimes we should all do that with different groups of people
gives us a different perpective on life
*smiles*

Now i have to Decide
should i take the extended dive trip to Tioman
the extra cost is not so much the problem
but i wanted to kinda get my close frens over to get wasted together
maybe that would have to wait?
anyone can spare mi his condo's function room?
cos i dun wanna get everyone drunk at my place
ahahaha
too much stuff to clean up after

Back from Chomp x 2
Tired
Exhausted
Fatigued

probably an accumalation form the week end

A New Week
A Brand New Start....

Smile and the World smiles with you

You Wish...

Back from Black
haha
The Hour or so of Hip Hop was good
Much better than the previous Night
And you can actually DANCE
Not Just Bop along to the beat
if u're thirsty u can go get a drink
not stand there and dehydrate
one thing that Black wins Zouk
Crowd Control
its nvr too Crowded
ok well... most of the time

But when it comes to the Crowd
its Quality not Quantity man
and Zouk still Tops that
haha

Saw some pple there
The Cute Girl from Ngee Ann... said Hi to her
( Ah Lian though...haha)
Meiru...well i see her everytime i go
Gary...same
Constance...Nice clubbing with you Again

and the usual pple i club with at Black
Darius...
Clara...
Lester...

it was an Ok Day
nice meetin up with Meen
The Gig went ok
TOR played well...

Went Zouk yest
was kinda boring
The Crowd Killed whatever mood
There were Hot Girls though
but din do anything as usual
haha
Well whats New...
Nvr had the confidence to pick up girls
nvr will i guess

Went home early

Busy Day Ahead...

Another Month of Suspense...
Still Pes D
This is rather Good News
Hopefully this follows up with an enlistment date in Dec

Met up with Dennis and Darius yest
My Sji Buddies
Always a Joy to meet up with them
the bond we share cannot be replicated elsewhere
the nonsense we can talk abt is amazing
but its all in good fun

My Legs are still aching
maybe its the flu
but gym later anyway

Training was a Killer
my hamstrings are tight
my arms are sore
so is my back
but...
it was damn Fun
Glad i din skip it...

No more Strength for Clubbing
Good thing?
hahaha
first wed nite at home since i got back

CMPB tmr
turns out my med review was 22/6 not 22/7
oops!!!
so i have to go down tmr to explain
and get the review done
maybe i'll enlist in sept?
something to do with my life finally?

The Gig's on SAT
I'll prob drop by to see TOR and Dead End
Catch up with the Dead End Guys
Stoned!!!

i'm over it
time to move on....
as the word goes
"Closure!"

And so The dinner came and went
It went Great
Thankfully everyone digged (i know the word does not exist) the pasta
was worried cos i haven done it since forever
at least the proper way that is
made an impromptu aglio olio with mushrooms for Su
was extremely worried abt that, cos i usually dun do it too well

It was great seeing people who enjoyed the food
the Bond was still there
with the witty remarks and jokes flying everywhere
only reason for me to ever miss school
however some pple could not make it( Sho, Sab, Faye, Kev, Cherie, Jas )
but it was still nice seeing all the BIO pple after a mth
Everyone's moving off already
Hup in Sept
Astrid in Nov
SAb soon
Makes me hate the Army so so much
why rob mi of 2 yrs of my youth
I will not defend this land if war come
call me a wimp
call mi a quitter
i dun care
I dun love this Country that much
Sure its Convenient
The Clubbing is "Good" and Safe
but honestly,
the reason i'm here is because of my friends and Family

i dun need the expensive cars and high cost of living
i dun need the non existent sales
i dun need the stupid Ah Bengs

but ...

i do need my friends
i do need my family
i do need the familiarity

so i guess i wun be gone for long

I'll head over to the Vet today to enquire abt a job opening
hopefully i get it
onlything is i'll have no life
the hours there are bad
no more clubbing
having to ration my off days( if i have any)

maybe i should drop by school too

I NEED TO GET A JOB
I feel so useless bumming at home
according to POSB, i'm now under Unemployed
omg
Unemployed.... isnt it like polititcally incorrect to call someone that
should they call you in between jobs
hahaha

I really have like no aim in life now
I'm suppose to be back in school doin my work
but i just dun feel up to it
actually i dun feel up to anything
i'm having one of those low self confidence days
not like i ever have high confidence days

haiz
whats going on with me
i feel like such a useless bum living off my parents
who am i to look at others and say things abt them
when i'm like at the lowest rung of society
someone who lives off their parents

arghhhhhhhhh
i actually miss her
but yet when i see her online
i cant seem to say anything
but i dun wanna do anything abt it
i really dun
it brings a smile to read her blog
seeing the stuff she writes abt him

Just got up from a long nite at Black
Drank so much
ok lah not that much
but all at 1 go
stopped drinking at 2
alcohol that is
started in the juices
made the place like a juice bar
hahaha
more punch?
more orange juice?

Jaydee bought Supper
Nice!!!
Thankz

It was ok
more of Chilling out and binge drinking than Clubbing
still feel the same way abt the music
hahaa
met Meiru there
the same person who said i ate her "toufu" the last time( jokingly of course)
hahaa
made it a pt not to have any uncalled for bodily contact
haha

might be heading down again tonite
will she go tonite???
hmmmmm

I got new Shoes!!!!
Yay!
my Air Jordans 1 Black/Gold
wanted them for so long but they cost too much here
so Ebay saved mi money
hahaha

Finally met up with Astrid Zuoyi and Jingting today
Astrid just got back from Australia yest
Funny!
the last time i met them
i just got back from australia the day before
hahaha

watched mean girls
It was funny
but its a watch, laugh and forget sort of movie
Nice to Chill out to

Finally got the Birks for my sis
Papillio's Florida Persia
bought according to the size she gave mi
turned out to be too big
so back to wheelock tmr to exchange them

So the plan now is
The Girls( Astrid, Zy, Jt ) and some other bio pple
will be coming over on tuesday
and i have to cook
yay!
Carbonara and Calamari
things i feel like cooking
hahaha

onto other things
sometime you have to realise when something has to end
"closure", the word of choice
i kinda realise something reading someone's blog
she is so happy with significant other
and i actually felt real happy for her
not fake happiness with the "i wish you would die" thinking behind your back
but really felt happy to see her in a nice relationship
and so it ends
the feelins still there
but more platonic now
: )

well
if its meant to happen, it will happen
thats how life works...
in a way we nvr understand

Hve you ever thought of how you wanted to die?
and what u wanted ur funeral to be like?

I dunno how i wanna die
just want it to be short and sweet
if i found out i had some sickness which would kill me slowly
i would rather kill myself
i think i would actually

at the funeral
i want nice chillout lounge music and jazz
with intervals of rock RnB
Come in whatever colours you want
i believe a funeral should be a celebration of life
not death
so come and be merry
i want a Dj spinning cool Music
and Alcohol
actually
i just want everyone to be happy
cos to me, i'm only worth as much happiness i can bring to others
so if u cry at my funeral
it means i din do a good job with my life :)

"Angels Brought Me Here"(Guy Sebastian)

It's been a long and winding journey, but i'm finally here tonight
Picking up the pieces, and walking back into the light
Into the sunset of your glory, where my heart and future lies
There's nothing like that feeling, when i look into your eyes...

My dreams came true, when i found you
I found you, my miracle...

If you could see, what i see, that you're the answer to my prayers
And if you could feel, the tenderness i feel
You would know, it would be clear, that angels brought me here...

Standing here before you, feels like i've been born again
Every breath is your love, every heartbeat speaks your name...

My dreams came true, right here in front of you
My miracle...

If you could see, what i see, you're the answer to my prayers
And if you could feel, the tenderness i feel
You would know, it would be clear, that angels brought me here...

Brought me here to be with you,
I'll be forever grateful (oh forever Faithful)
My dreams came true
When I found you
My miracle...

If you could see, what i see, you're the answer to my prayers
And if you could feel, the tenderness i feel
You would know, it would be clear, that angels brought me here...
Yes they brought me here...
If you could feel, the tenderness i feel...
You would know, it would be clear, that angels brought me here...

Its one thing to find someone who loves you

Its another to find someone you Love

Find the Balance and you'll have a perfect relationship

Where to find that person?

Thats like looking for the tasmanian tiger
you know its somewhere out there
but nvr seem to ever find it

and that is one of life's biggest jokes

I think i've told some people before
the weather affects my moods for the day
when it rains, i get all depressed and start thinking too much
when its hot, i get sweaty and pissy, but overall cheerful with more sarcasm
when its sunny but breezy, i'm in the best mood of all, sarcastic, lame and smiley
Moral of the story, i need the sun and air con

Slept the whole day away
I have no Life!

*mark of Darius*?

oh no
Guinea Pig Gave Birth
but the Baby Died
Sad!
had to dispose of the body

R.E. Shay
Depend on the rabbit's foot if you will, but remember it didn't work for the rabbit.

Just Woke up after a late Night out
Always nice to have one of these once in a while

why do Radio stations play depressing Songs late at nite?
Darius was sayin cos the nite is usually associated with such feelings
but if someone is already feeling down and u play such music
wun it increase the possibility of his/her mood changin and contemplating suicide
they should play happy songs at nite
so it evens out the mood
at least if they try anything in the day
theres a higher chance of them being saved

ok that was a total bunch of Bull
but i've got it off my chest

thought of a Xtremely lame comic scenario while walking around town a few days ago
stuck in my head
hahaha

oh well
ate like tons of Rubbish yest
Beer
Oysters
Prata

Sinful Sinful
But Good

Nice to meet up with Sho after so long
2 mths actually
always nice to talk to her

went over to Jaydee's to watch "Confessions of a teenage Drama Queen"
Seeing Darius gushing over Lindsay Lohan was funny
hahaha
I still think the Bitch looked damn Hot!

Just Got Home from the Rugby Game
Lost the game
but i played ok
at least i felt that way
Hard Luck!

Embaressed myself infront of all the pple there
chasing the ball
i tried to change direction in order to avoid the ref
but ended up tripping and falling
dislocating my shoulder in the process
but the shoulder popped back in when i stood up
still feels out of place though
:P

Tired
Tired Tired
Still in no mood to do absolutely anything
haiz

Seem to Blog alot more lately
maybe cos i'm bored
spend another day home
except for a trip to the gym

life is kinda gettin rather routine
and me with my short attention span
is gettin sick of everything
- sick of town
- sick of clubs
- sick of tv
- sick of being online

nothing much left
i hate taking public transport now
cabs are ex
but buses are not that cheap either when u're paying adult fare
its not like driving is cheap either
but at least u get there fast
and its still cheaper than cabbing

still feeling troubled
by dunno what
its just a nagging feeling i'm having
but i dunno how to get rid of it
cant do much abt it
even with the little part that i know abt

Feel like cooking pasta and calamari
who wants to come over?

I'm Tired
but i can go to sleep
theres something on my mind
but i dunno what it is
maybe i know the reason
but i'm just avoiding it
maybe not...

music seems to trigger thoughts alot
secret garden by Bruce Springsteen and
Guy Sebastian does that

I miss Seeing her
a very bittersweet feeling
every time i see her

Getting Sick of Wed Nites@Zouk
most pple go there to pick up Chicks
but i nvr do that
some people go there for the music
well, its the same everyweek
not that its not Goood
btw i think Andrew Chow is amazing on the decks
i cant even be bothered to check out most of the girls there
someone has already caught my eye.

so prob gonna stop goin on wed
fridays and Saturdays?
only when a good Guest Dj is in town

went Shoe Browsing with Lumps and Sam at Queensway
Saw many tempting shoes
but cant buy
Hope Lumps finds his Dream Dunks soon
its amazing how many things we have in common
Lumpy and Me
maybe its the former Neighbour connection
we both love House
- pink, purple
- dunks
-shoppin
- rugby
and many more
hahah

met up with Jachin with Sam
Nice seeing him after so Long
he made the army seem a little interestin with its many characters
but scared the shit out of mi with the 7 yr in DB for losing something
wth....7 yrs?
i would shooot myself

Met Yap too
always nice to talk Cock with Him

plan for tmr
will go Zouk......if Vig signs mi in
thats abt it

Do unto other what you would like to be done to you

been my motto for a long time
dun intend to change it
as tempting as it is to just ignore it for once

A Nite of wonderful company
it was Fun and Nice seeing her/them

Pessimist usually get more success than optimists
because they plan in case of failure
and backup the backup plan
whereas optimists assume everything is gonna be fine

it seems that with most things
i'm a pessimist

but when it come to more personal things
i prefer to remain an optimist
with the occasional venture to the pessimistic side

No mood to do whatsoever
the news really spoilt my day/week/month
lets see how long it takes?

Back to Rugby
Will go for first training in awhile on Wed!
was so looking forward to wed nite
not its just a dread to even think of that day

what a diff 2 weeks make

the wed before last,
i was on cloud nine
i met the prettiest girl in the world
the one with a wonderful personality
spontateous, cheerful and friendly
what more could i ask for?

why did i have to go to Spain
my whole trip there
i dreaded the stay
all i wanted to do was come back home
be in the place where it mattered
knowing mi, i nvr ever say i wanna be back in singapore
but this time it was diff
i had something making this island actually attractive
even the beautiful spanish women looked ordinary
in every beautiful girl i saw
i saw her.


but its only 1 week u say.
i dunno why i'm so attracted to her
if u know why?
tell mi
i would like to know
dun say its because i haven really liked a girl for a long time
its not the reason
theres something special
but its doesn't matter anymore aight?


its back to square 1
blame it on me not saying anything
blame it on spain
blame it on whatever

whats happened has happened
Back to the harsh Realities
I'll be fine
let mi say my piece and i'll be gone

well its back to square 1
she just got attached
wow!

its like ...
argh
whatever....

i really dun care anymore

life's a bitch
so be it


well it was nice knowing u

In Spain now
i dun like the place
i dun like Europe for that matter
hahaha
I´m gonna make it a pt
next time i visit a place
i must know the language

The shopping´s is nothing to crow about
The stuff here makes the stuff in Singapore look amazing
and the Prices

The only saving Grace is the Food
which is absolutely heavenly
2 weeks of working out down the drain
hahahaç but the food was really good

the Women are Beautiful
but i would rather look at someone else back home
hahaha
she makes the ladies here look bad
hahaha

Back on Friday
cant wait
rugby dinner
hopefully the pple whom i ask over on sunday will come over
hahah
and we can drink our selves silly
hahaha

bottomline
I Miss Singapore
not the place
but the pple
ok and maybe Zouk
but thats about it
i miss speaking English and being understood